Life is like the cycle of seasons. People change, but not for long do they sustain the change. Maybe to break the monotony of life, maybe to prove a difference or maybe simply without a reason.
I remember while i was writing these lines almost an year back i was a different person. Whatever one does come back for sure. Today, i oblige the reception of my own lines to myself.And when i want to reproduce the same here once again, my sincere effort of getting there where i used to be dies down to nothing. And that brings the realization to me- the most casual things in life become the most serious changes, which can never be rewound.
I'll never wait!!!!
Ruling bliss and harmony,
At the cost of a few hard feelings,
I aver today,
Not really that trifling...though,
Those were prized once,
But…
I don't wait to wonder,
How can I be so vindictive?
I used to affirm it orally,
Yeah!!! I'm a sadist..
But, today I love to be one.
When I tear hopes,
I smash dreams to smithereens,
My kindness is as arid as ma eyes.
Or is it getting stained?
But….
I don wait to ponder,
Will it be lucid as times run close?
Once my solitude also wished company,
And now celebrations even are content,
All alone,
Life's beckoning me to the darker side…
Black was always my fantasy…though,
Today even my dreams are black,
But….
I don't wait to brood over…
Are these silver linings an illusion?
I speak I'm making life,
I'm churning dreams,
But I can realize a peccadillo,
You don't actually make a life,
To the detriment of fellow anticipations,
But…
I don't wait to think,
Rather I don't wanna wait to think.
And never I will wait…. I'm what I'm!!!!!!
I'm living MY life!!!!!!
Aug 28, 2009
Aug 7, 2009
Revelations
Every phase of life presents you with a bunch of revelations. Such was the past few days for me. Never in my mind, it occured to me that these would kill the me in me.
After these most unexpected revelations, i struggle to be in harmony with myself.
I spent the past few days on this earth just to realize, i am not what i had thought.
It's a deep clutch on the senses to discard the hallucinations which took me floating on cloud nine once in life. The fall should have shattered me to pieces before i ever could feel i am just like any other girl. Never i had thought of uttering these pathetic words to myself, but yeah..now there is no escape.
After these most unexpected revelations, i struggle to be in harmony with myself.
I spent the past few days on this earth just to realize, i am not what i had thought.
It's a deep clutch on the senses to discard the hallucinations which took me floating on cloud nine once in life. The fall should have shattered me to pieces before i ever could feel i am just like any other girl. Never i had thought of uttering these pathetic words to myself, but yeah..now there is no escape.